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1 - Why I've Started Blogging About Frontotemporal Dementia

OK so here goes... my first blog post. I must admit, I don't think I've actually thought this through. I was having a 'sad day' today and whilst I was in the shower (around 8 hours ago), I decided a blog could probably achieve 2 things; the first being some therapy for me, the second being a place where people could visit, relate and understand Frontotemporal Dementia (FTD). So here I am, 8 hours later and £86.50 out of pocket, I've built a website and I'm getting ready to publish my first 'diary entry'. Before I start, I feel I need to include a major disclaimer - I'm not a writer! Who ever said I was impulsive?

I thought my first diary entry should include some background information and to explain why I've done this, so that's exactly what I'm going to do.

My name is Jess, I am 28 years old and married to Gregg (I know I'm bias but he really is the best husband ever). I don't have any kids of my own yet (and in another post I will explain why), but I do have 2 lovely step-kids aged 12 and 11. I have a very large family, both parents are still alive and I am blessed with 3 brothers and 2 sisters. Alongside my own family, I am close to all of Gregg's relatives and I have a great relationship with every one of them (rare, I know!). I also have a whole bunch of funny, talented and caring friends who never fail to pick me up when I need it. Finally, I have a really good job at a firm of financial advisers as Head of Business Development. All in all, l really love my life and I can't complain. I've also just realised how hard it is to summarise your life in one paragraph...

Despite all of the above, of course my life isn't perfect. Like most people, I've had trials and tribulations throughout. In fact, the biggest test I have faced is the whole reason for this blog; my mum's diagnosis with a rare form of dementia called FTD in February 2019. I will do another diary entry which explains FTD in detail, but for now I want you to focus on one descriptive word I've used, rare.

FTD causes problems with behaviour and language and affects the front and sides of the brain (the frontal and temporal lobes). This form of dementia tends to start at a younger age, most cases are diagnosed in people aged 45-65. My mum was only 62 when she received her diagnosis, though her symptoms started much earlier and by the time she received her diagnosis (it was a very lengthy process), she was already pretty advanced. The diagnosis also didn't come as a shock to me, my friends and work colleagues always joke that I should join the FBI due to my research skills and in this situation, my skills shone through! The one thing the diagnosis did provide me with however was relief. I was utterly convinced for so long that mum was suffering with FTD, even when others doubted me. I finally had a diagnosis, a reason behind my mum's concerning behaviour and something for me to focus on. I could now research FTD in-depth and figure out how we will manage this condition going forward. Surely there was still a way for mum to have a good quality of life?


I decided to try and find out, however it wasn't as easy as that. This is why the word rare is so important. All I knew was that there is no cure for FTD or any treatment to slow it down, a real blow. Whilst there are over 800,000 people in the UK with dementia (and it's estimated that by 2025, this will have increased to around 1 million), FTD is a specific form of dementia which is uncommon. I struggled to find online support, to find out why mum had different symptoms to everyone else, to understand why she was losing the ability to talk, I struggled to relate to just one person. I didn't have a clue what I was doing, I felt truly alone. Although I had family around me, they also struggled.


This all changed when I accidently stumbled across an interview on This Morning with a woman named Hannah Mackay. She was being interviewed to raise awareness of FTD after her father had been diagnosed. It was such a sad story, but it was also the first time I felt I could reach out to someone who would understand. That's when I went into full blown weirdo mode and I messaged a stranger on Facebook Messenger asking for help. To my surprise, she replied with the best response ever. She gave me guidance, she provided me with useful resources but most importantly, she understood. She could relate with me and knew exactly what I was going through.

This is why I've started this, Hannah helped me and I want to help others. If I found a blog like this when I was in need, it would have been my saving grace. I am going to be honest, too. I will go into every bit of detail including when I started spotting changes, her symptoms, the process of getting a diagnosis, things I've done that have helped her and other supportive resources I have found.


Mum is really advanced now and the journey my family has been on so far hasn't been easy. I'm in a situation currently where I am grieving my mum, even though she's still alive. She doesn't speak anymore and I'm not convinced she even knows who I am. Her progression has been incredibly quick and things change each day. Her level of care required now is huge (another story for another day!) but despite all of this, I do still manage to enjoy my time with her and find small victories.


There's more to this too, as only last week I had a call to say this is a genetic condition and there's a 50/50 chance I will also suffer with this disease. Not only do I want this blog to help others, I want it to help me too. I have found myself anxious over the last few days and I already feel better after putting it into words. I suppose this is like my therapy and I'm taking you all on this journey with me, I hope you're ready!

Here's a pic of me & mum, back when we didn't have a care in the world!


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Hello Jess. So good to come across your blog. I just typed in ftd stories and you popped up! How are you doing? And your mum? I notice you haven't written anything since 2020. My journey is a long one too. Diagnosed with MCI - Mild Cognitive Impairment in 2018 I have seen a steady decline. Waiting for results from UCL. I look forward to reading more. God bless - Ian

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Jessica Crawford
Jessica Crawford
Apr 07, 2021
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Hi Ian! I’m so pleased you found my blog and thank you for reading! I’ve actually done 17 posts, my last one was in Feb 2021 so you certainly have plenty to read! Hopefully my site is still working and you can view them all! Sorry to hear about your diagnosis, it must be a very scary time for you and if you ever want to talk, I’m always available. Thinking of you and hope you’re managing as well as you can. Jess x

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Hi Jess, I have stumbled across your blog, and so sorry to read what you and your mum are going through. I lost my mum in 1996 with FTD, she was diagnosed at 57 and passed away aged 62. At the time it was hard to find out more information about her condition and my brother and I were also told it was genetic and we have a 50/50 chance of getting it. I am now 57 and all seems well so far! I can totally relate to what you are going through and it is so very distressing for everybody involved. I look forward to following you and your mum through your journey. Thank you and keep smiling x

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Steff's Journey
Steff's Journey
Jun 10, 2020

Sorry to hear your mum has this condition, I must admit I’ve never heard of it! My Nan has Alzheimer’s so I understand how you feel to a certain extent. You’ve written this really well by the way, welcome to the world of blogging! I hope you’re enjoying it so far! X

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Hi Jess - stumbled upon your blog in my own dementia research and recognised you and your mum right away. So sorry to hear about all your family are going through. Your mum has always been a gorgeous & glam lady full of life and sass! I always remember doing the Saturday Night dance in your back garden! Lots of love, Molly (Valentines) xxx.

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Hi Jess- beautifully written - especially for a person who isn’t a writer!! Thank you for sharing your experience- I wish you and your family all the best x

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